December 13, 2010

I slacked off, so here's a bunch to make up for it. (8-12)

8. What do you like the most about yourself?
I almost just cheated and asked my friend what he likes most about me. But hey, that's not what the question asked. See, here's the thing, I find it difficult to find many things I like about myself, although I could list off a million things I hate about myself. So I guess if there's one thing I like about myself, it's my ability to get attention, as horrible as that sounds. I'm really good at it, and when I start to feel bad about relying on that skill, I think: it's not what you know, it's who you know.
9. Are you a lover or a fighter?
I'm a little bit of both, if that makes sense.  The boy who decides to not leave me will be the luckiest guy ever, because I can promise I will love him totally and completely.  At the same time, if you piss me off, watch out.  I can make you feel horrible and release wrath you don't know the end of.  But I think that combination is what makes me so initially endearing.  I can flirt like crazy because I'm simultaneously tearing you apart but showing you glimpses of crazy affection. I'm confusing and that's exciting, hence the ability to acquire attention.
10. What would you say your biggest fear is when it comes to relationships?
Secrets or getting left alone.  Either one involves shadiness and lying and feelings getting hurt. Just be honest with me.  If things aren't working, just tell me...maybe we can fix things.
11. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change and why?
I'm so freaking emotional, and it sucks. Sure, someone may appreciate it someday, but until then, it just makes life difficult.
12. What are features you get complimented on a lot?
My big eyes, pretty hair, height, petite-ness, smile....I don't know, it seems that I survive on my appearance. Whatever.

December 8, 2010

And on the SEVENTH DAY, He rested.

7. What is something you’re addicted to?
 
 
 
Honestly, as dumb and crazy and stupid as it sounds, it's gotta be love. I love love. I love everything about it. I love the joy and pain it is capable of bringing. I love that it kept Harry Potter alive. I love how on air you feel when it's present and the creativity it pulls out of people when it's stolen from you. I love the strength it has but can still be so gentle. I look for it everywhere, in everything and everyone. It's ridiculous, and maybe it's an attention thing, but it's what I want more than anything.
 
By the way, I'm addicted to letters to crushes. Legit. I bet you could find me there if you tried. lalala

December 7, 2010

DAY SIX

Day 6: Have you ever been heartbroken? Have you ever broken a heart?
 
Yes, to both. I find myself often breaking hearts, and I don't mean to sound conceited when I say that.  I get bored easily, and I also find myself falling in love with every other guy I see. To quote my favorite movie in attempt to snap myself out of it:
 
"Just because a cute girl likes the same bizzaro crap you do, doesn't mean she's your soulmate."
 
 
Because of this, I get my heart broken a lot, but I don't know if it's really the guys doing it or if I'm breaking my own heart due to overtly high expectations. Either way, I've lost faith in love as of late. I want my fairytale, and I'm afraid it's never going to happen.
 
I apologize for these blogs seriously SUCKING. I've been having minor (major?) freak-outs lately and can't focus for my life.