Well that didn't work. (14-20)

The little 20-day challenge...yeah, I bombed that. I'm over it; I couldn't focus on anything during finals week. So let's wrap this up and move on to bigger, better things, eh?

14. Write a letter to someone important in your life.

Dear Michael,
    I know I only met you this year at SOAR, but I am so thankful for you being with me in college. I'm glad we bonded automatically and I know there are so many adventures we have yet to go through together. I'm so excited for them. :) You are an absolutely wonderful, amazing, gifted, talented, outgoing, bubbly, strong-willed, beautiful person inside and out, and I am so blessed to call you my best friend. I will always be there for you, my lovely little twin, and I can't wait for you to design my wedding dress and help me plan the entire thing when the day comes! haha :) I love you so so so much, buddy.

15. Whom do you admire the most?

I admire my grandpa...even though I know that oozes with predictability.  I don't care what he was to other people (meaning good or bad), because to me, from what my young mind remembers, he was a provider and a very generous man. He loved God, and I often remember him with his Bible in his lap.  During his sickness, he stayed strong, at least for me, and showed me what true strength was, no matter how physically weak he got.

16. What are 10 goals in your life?

Let me start by saying I only make goals that I'm not sure wouldn't happen anyway. For example, a few months back, I would've never put "graduate high school", because for me, there was no alternative.

1. get married
2. have children
3. and pets
4. post-marriage but pre-children, get cute little apartment or condo downtown
5. post-children, get cute little house in the suburbs, preferably north/northwest of the city
6. learn how to play guitar and piano
7. become successful in whatever I do
8. find enough time to go to cosmetology school after college
9. travel...anywhere
10. hone photography skills so that I'm actually halfway decent and can capture some memories from said travels

17. What gives you sincere happiness?

Sincere happiness to me is leaning way back in the passenger seat of a good friend's car, bare feet on the dash, windows and hair down, sunglasses on, cruising to an unknown destination in the middle of summer (far too fast) with some overplayed (probably 90s boy band) song blasting so loud I can't hear myself singing it. Lovely.

18. What are the 10 most significant memories in your life?

1. moving to Indiana...and back
2. my grandpa dying
3. moving to the 'burbs/my first day at the biggest high school ever
4. Jake...and the aftermath
5. going to state for poms
6. freshman orientation at DU
7. prom weekend
8. graduation
9. my entire first semester of college as a slideshow of moments
10. all the daydreams I have for my numerous stages of the future, because I spent too much time doing that, and

 "Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia...You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."

19. When were the happiest days in your life?

Ughhhh I hate doing this. It's so cliche and annoying, even for me, but if you've read any of my other posts, you should already know what's coming. The happiest days of my life so far were from the end of junior year to the beginning of my senior year. You can fill in the blanks and figure the rest out. Done.

20. If you died tomorrow, what’s one thing you’d regret not doing?

Telling everyone exactly how I feel about each one of them, and not leaving anything to the imagination. I think that covers a lot.

LUCKY #13

13. What is your favorite sport?

Lately, I've been really into soccer.  But that's not for the sport, that's for the boys. I love soccer players, oh my god. Hottest breed of men EVER.  I mean, seriously, have you seen David Beckham?

But honestly, and this is so embarrassing when I go to watch my soccer boys here at DU play (or my siblings...oops), I don't know the ins and outs of soccer at all.  I mean, I know enough to get me by, but that's about it.
As far as actually understanding sports, college basketball is what I get into.  But I can't go that tall. ;)

I slacked off, so here's a bunch to make up for it. (8-12)

8. What do you like the most about yourself?

I almost just cheated and asked my friend what he likes most about me. But hey, that's not what the question asked. See, here's the thing, I find it difficult to find many things I like about myself, although I could list off a million things I hate about myself. So I guess if there's one thing I like about myself, it's my ability to get attention, as horrible as that sounds. I'm really good at it, and when I start to feel bad about relying on that skill, I think: it's not what you know, it's who you know.

9. Are you a lover or a fighter?

I'm a little bit of both, if that makes sense.  The boy who decides to not leave me will be the luckiest guy ever, because I can promise I will love him totally and completely.  At the same time, if you piss me off, watch out.  I can make you feel horrible and release wrath you don't know the end of.  But I think that combination is what makes me so initially endearing.  I can flirt like crazy because I'm simultaneously tearing you apart but showing you glimpses of crazy affection. I'm confusing and that's exciting, hence the ability to acquire attention.

10. What would you say your biggest fear is when it comes to relationships?

Secrets or getting left alone.  Either one involves shadiness and lying and feelings getting hurt. Just be honest with me.  If things aren't working, just tell me...maybe we can fix things.

11. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change and why?

I'm so freaking emotional, and it sucks. Sure, someone may appreciate it someday, but until then, it just makes life difficult.

12. What are features you get complimented on a lot?

My big eyes, pretty hair, height, petite-ness, smile....I don't know, it seems that I survive on my appearance. Whatever.